test drive and tomorrow

the official plan is TOMORROW. yes, Ford will be coming home tomorrow. for real.

in the meantime, to ease us into that fact, we've brought him home during the day this weekend on passes.

day 1, saturday, was hard. we just felt we didn't know what to do with him! and he was not impressed. what do people do with their babies when there isn't copious medical staff involved at all hours and you're not confined to 20 square feet? we don't know.

being used to always being within 5 feet of Ford, i found it hard to leave him sleeping in a whole other room while we worked in the living room. to relieve my anxiety, i put Ford in the bassinet on wheels and pushed him around the house while he was sleeping so i could glance upon him no matter what i was doing. today i found i could wander freely around the house and leave him stationary - so i'm relaxing on that point, quicker than i would have guessed. overall day 2, today, feels a bit better as the idea that he is all ours, not shared with the hospital, is slowly sinking in. emboldened, we even ventured up the hill to The Drive and annoyed people in the shops with ungracefully maneuvering our giant stroller through the aisles.

speaking of ungraceful, it's a bit cumbersome carrying his portable pump, which is in a blue bag, when moving or carrying him. i definitely have to remember to pick the pump up before picking Ford up. but that is something we'll get used to i'm sure, along with all the other new things that will soon, i hope, be routine.

tonight will be our last night sleeping over at the hospital, and tomorrow we pack up and clear out! hard to believe isn't it?