Wednesday, March 31, 2010

worth mentioning

it is noteworthy that ford has been totally weaned off sedation/pain management. they started by weaning his ativan and once rid of that, slowly decreased his morphine infusion down to nothing as well. depending on the nurse, he sometimes get a dose of ativan to help with his "re-tapes", and depending on his liver function, occasional tylenol to ease his fevers. otherwise - nothing!

nothing! (for pain. his lasix and milrinone infuse on).

perhaps remarkable says it better than noteworthy. everyone marvels at his sedation-free good humour, considering he is intubated through one nostril, and has an NG stuffed down the other. not to mention all the other drawbacks of life in the CCU.

but he smiles more these days than he ever has! if he's happy here, imagine how pleased he'll be when he gets to the other side of this...

so we find moments of happiness too. unfortunately for us, unlike ford, we know what we're missing. so we also have many moments of heartbreak, alone here at night, miles away from him.

here is some recent cuddle time with momma:
with pops (and fluid retention):
in his millieu:
and in other cute baby news, we had a recent visit, and closet inspection, from Rudi:

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Evidence

Nom, Nom, Nom. I would bite your finger if only these damn sedatives would wear off...
Alternatively captioned: The Killer Baby of Caerbannog.




Still shot from our pitch to Warner Bros to have Ford replace Christian Bale in the next Batman film.




Ford's great-aunt Shawn, testing the myth that he might be a fictional, animatronic sculpture plucked from Ron Mueck's studio for the purpose of helping us pull off the worst fundraising scam ever. Ah, but yes. He's real.

did anyone else watch the 5th Estate last night?

sorry about the long-time-no-talk, but we've had little to report. the hours and weeks are hard to distinguish from the ones before or after as we repeat our daily routine from our apartment to Ford's bedside.

since we last spoke, he has worked his way up from being allowed an hour a day on his back, to now being able to spend the whole day on his back or side, and then overnight on his tummy. they perform the occasional bronchoscopy to recruit his left lung, though only for the purpose of staving off pneumonias. "we'll keep trying to wean the vent" is a thing of the past as all are resigned to the fact that Ford won't be able to be extubated until he has a new heart.

he continues to be febrile and living under the bair-hugger and bags of ice, and is now, though still in a pod of four beds, under isolation for an "ARO" - anti0biotic resistant organism - his long time resident pseudomonas virus. the virus lives in the vent, so gloves, gowns and masks will be required for all staff as long as he is intubated.

discovered yesterday, he additionally contracted "h flu", or haemophilus influenza, so today and yesterday have been pretty uncomfortable for the little sickie.

his fluid balance and diuretics continue to fluctuate up and down, and the swelling in his face follows... same old same old.

he has, otherwise, been doing as well as he could under the circumstances. mostly stable and relatively happy, he only occasionally gives us a worrying reminder of his fragility. in those moments we all hold our breath and cross our fingers until he finds his steady ground again and the doctors part with "hopefully a heart comes soon".

he smiles a lot these days at almost anyone who tries to elicit a grin, and, now that he can be on his back and see around him, is remembering how to reach and grab for his toys and books. we've both been able to "hold" him a couple times over the past few weeks - where he is placed on our laps in the rocking chair - and though it's not like really getting to pick him up and hold him to our chests in our arms as we desperately crave to, it's better than nothing.

we've been graced with many out of town visitors - the trolls returned from Ottawa for a weekend visit, nana Rhonda and grandpa Leo were just here from Ramsay NJ, aunt Shawn and cousin Amanda from Sarnia, and this week, also from fair Sarnia, Ford's grandma Ruth is coming to town.

Rhonda got the first pictures of Ford's teeth, so we'll try to get those and post them here. they are very cute additions to his little face.

enough about us, how are you?